Unscripted. Unedited. Real.
Writing for five minutes.
A sort of writing flash mob.
I bend low, nuzzling cheek and ear, drinking in the smell of boy and soap. It is warm in the crook of his neck. And his arms, they circle round and round my neck. And this child, he won't let go. Not tonight, at least. Or tomorrow. Or even the day after that. This nightly ritual, this silent clamoring, this desperate appeal...it is, at once, constant and fleeting. Everything in him cries out for me to stay.here.always.
And I should listen.
Because there will come a day when his cheek will be coarse and his smell will slant towards manhood. And his arms, they will lengthen and his reach, it will widen. And that wish for me to stay will cool in the wake of shifting winds.
So, for now, tonight, I will stay.
And as I nestle into the folds of his fleeting boyish charms I find my soul has a clamoring all its own.
Stay. Here.
Remain. Here.
"Stay joined to me, and I will stay joined to you."
John 15:4 (CEV)
Oh, that day comes all too quickly. My "little" boy is now 6'4" and will be 16 in two weeks. I can rarely get him to snuggle anymore. Imagine that! lol But when he does, it is still just as sweet.
ReplyDeleteSo glad you left a comment on my blog! I can so relate to what you wrote!!! I have three boys so I have shared similar sentiments!
ReplyDeleteHolly, your heart shouts praise for these days, the ones of boyish ways. The bonding and bending low, the building up of the child and the relationship. Your love penetrates my heart as a mom of boys and if your words can accomplish that from miles away, I can hardly fathom the feelings this young boy have stirring in the deep of the deep love from you, its holy, Holly.
ReplyDeleteBeautiful. I could feel those little arms around my neck. Thanks... it's been while since I've felt them hold on so tightly.
ReplyDeleteOh, my... I'm a mom of ONE son and I see this day coming. While he's still here, I'll snuggle him and love him as my "little one". Praying I embrace EACH and every moment with grace.
ReplyDeleteLOVE this... so powerful! Not only from a Mama's heart - but from a Daughters' perspective as well!!!
ReplyDeleteBeautiful! Yes, cherish these days and always, always stay.
ReplyDeleteYes, Nancy, it does. Here's to holding them close, always.
ReplyDeleteJodi, grateful to have visited you. I am thankful to hear that you understand.
ReplyDeleteOh, Elizabeth, my heart just swelled at these words. Such is my prayer, that he will always know how deeply I love him.
ReplyDeleteKimberly, aren't those little arms just heavenly?
ReplyDeleteYes, Stefanie, snuggle and hold him close. Drink him in. Grab hold of the moment. Love.
ReplyDeleteKarrilee, thank you for your kind words. So thankful to have you here.
ReplyDeleteTresta, thank you for your kinds words. Here's to more days of staying.
ReplyDeleteOh, Holly, I am:))
ReplyDeleteOh Holly, This, "Because there will come a day when his cheek will be coarse and his smell will slant towards manhood."
ReplyDeleteMy boy is ever inching toward this time and I cannot believe how quickly it has happened. I so feel your mother's heart here.
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